I suppose I'm like a lot of people out there. I've been in college for three years now and I have no idea what to do with my life. I see all these things on Tv and read in books about people doing extraordinary things with their lives. Like battling evil robots or fighting for the sake of good. I'm a big Harry Potter fan and sometimes when I read the books, or see the movies, I'm saddened because real life isn't like that. Real life is about ordinary people doing ordinary things. We do have some amazing people out there (soldiers, teachers, police men, nurses... ) but it never seems to be enough for me. I long for the days of old, when the nights would fight honorably for king and country, the weight of the world hanging on their shoulders as they made to triumph over evil. Legends of Robin Hood and his heroic deeds have filled my bedtime stories, along with The Three Musketeers. They lay in hiding, waiting for the perfect opportunity to make sure those in power did not abuse their privileges and that their people would always be taken care of. In the real world, life just doesn't work like that anymore. Everyone has their own agenda. I've always wanted to be the one to save the day, to unite the world in peace, to rescue those in destress. I wanted to go on adventures, running from the corrupt law as it tried its best to silence us. I want people to look to me for guidance and to know that I would do everything in my power to keep them safe. Of course, in the tales of such heroes, they never asked to be one, instead it was thrust upon them. And maybe that is why I will never be in that position, because I want it. I want to be great, and to have people know that I am great. Perhaps that is my downfall, and yet if you look close at the legends you notice that they might not have asked for their duties, but once they had them they also had an arrogance in the way that they thought that they were the only ones able to do the job. Maybe they didn't ask for such charges, but secretly wanted them anyways. I mean, who doesn't want to be great, who doesn't want to go down in history? I can't think of anyone I know that would want to fade into the background and be meaningless in society. We all want something.
So that's my problem, wanting all that, what am I supposed to do in college now. It seems like anything I choose wouldn't mean anything, that it would be settling for something less that I feel I can do. Who else feels this way?
